Silly me–I thought things would settle down once we made it through our kitchen remodel. But then I started working on my book proposal like a maniac, at the expense of my health, sleep and general sanity. And then I found out that the stomachaches Nico’s been complaining about for the past few months are because he can no longer handle dairy or wheat. On top of everything, we’ve spent the last month getting ready for my mom to move in with us while her new place is getting ready.
Along the way, I’ve delayed a few work projects, stopped doing laundry and sent out plenty of “Sorry! Things are crazy right now” kind of emails, pushing way too much of real life onto the back burner. I slid back into my old workaholic ways and found myself getting irritated at all sorts of things, big and small. The busier I got, the more things I started adding to my calendar. At one point, I even tried to talk a friend into a last-minute trip to Mexico (oh, yeah). Until it all came crashing down this weekend, when Nico ran into two of his buddies all dressed up and ready to go to their first Little League game and I realized just how badly I’d fucked up.
Talk about being bummed.
I’ll be honest with you–I didn’t even have Little League on my radar. But when I saw how bummed out Nico was to not be playing, I realized that I need to mend my ways and start taking care of some regular ‘ole day-to-day stuff. Like the old saying goes, life’s not a sprint, it’s a marathon (or something like that). Lately, I’ve been flailing at both.
Luckily, there’s hope. We’re finally starting to get the hang of feeding our dairy-and-gluten-free child (whose stomachaches have all but disappeared, thank god), I’m about a week away from finishing my proposal (thank god, take 2) and in a few more days, my mom will be out of her second-floor condo and on her way toward a first-floor home (thank you, Jesus!) that’s much better suited for her since she broke her hip this past fall.
Plus, I’ve got Nico on the Little League waitlist and am actively trolling websites (ok, not really, but I’ll try) to see when summer registration begins.
In the meantime, I’m going to try and slow down over here. I’m going to finally kick the cold that I got while Trying to Be Super Human, and am getting back into exercising and sleeping. I’m even going to try and get my head out of my ass and start focusing on what I’m grateful for (instead of endlessly complaining, like I’ve been doing as of late). Which leads me to…
Next up: Meet Laura, who gave up complaining for Lent.
P.S. If all else fails, crank up your favorite song and start dancing. Talk about a great way to get out of your head and back into your body. I got this song (“Ganesh is Fresh” by MC Yogi) from my kick-ass dance class this morning.
P.S.S. The louder, the better.